It was eight years ago when I first stepped foot in America, to a state called New Mexico. I was in third grade and it was a struggle for me since I didn’t understand nor speak the English language. All I knew was, “Hello”, “Bye”, and “Can I go to the restroom”. I’ve always been shy even when I was little. I was afraid to talk to people, especially in a big crowd. I didn’t have any friends in my third grade at all. One day, on valentine day 2017, I went onto the internet. Back then, we couldn’t afford computers so I was on the tablet that my dad got me for my 8th birthday. I met this person. Her name was Rosalia, but I called her by the nickname “Teddy”. She was like my other half, she didn’t have many friends either. I remember using google translate to help me talk to her since it was over text messages and when I was younger, English wasn’t my strong suit. Each day after school, we would always play games together, talk for hours on end, and would always have so much fun until our bedtime. Sometimes, we’d stay up past our bedtime, just to play truth or dare and talk about our future when we’re older. So we had a two hours difference from each other so she lived in Ohio. The times would be later for her but we always stayed up late no matter what the time was. “Teddy, Goodnight”, Every night we ended the conversation like that. No one ever said good night to me and just saying good night to each other let me have a peaceful sleep. We got closer over time as we got older until three years ago. I was in sixth-grade, beginning of middle school. I met my first few friends.I started spending less and less time with Teddy. We still talked to each other, but I remember on January 29, 2021, It was around 11 for me, and she asked if we could talk and play something since it’s been a while. I told her I had to sleep since I had school the next day and if we could play after school. “Goodnighty Teddy,” I said. “Goodnight dummy, ilysm.”, she replied. Who would’ve thought it would be the last time I’d hear from her, my Teddy. It was when I got back from school, Jenna ,a mutual friend but she was closer to Teddy, broke the news that, “Teddy is gone, she’s not here anymore.” I was frozen and was still processing things. It was just like my heart stopped beating. I kept denying what I heard saying, “No it couldn’t be it.” Then I came to realize that Teddy is gone, my Teddy is gone. I spent a couple of months in denial and still can’t or even don’t want to accept the truth. November 11,2021. It was 10 months after that day. I haven’t had a good sleep since that day, and it was Teddy’s 12th birthday. It will always break me since on her birthday we would always spend time together. This year and now on, I will have to celebrate it alone. I go back and read our old messages. There was a link to a website she created for me. She loved to code stuff. There was a message. “If you’re going through something, don’t think about the fact you’re going to lose or you can’t take it. Think about the fact you are gonna make it. You have to push through it because you will persevere. You will end up being the winner, you’ll end up being the champion, you’ll end up living out your life and your dreams and your family and everything. Push through it, think about the smiles on your friends faces when you persevere”. That was my call to finally move on, since Teddy was here right now. She would want me to be happy and move on with my life. I started becoming better, meeting more friends and finding real friends. I promised myself that I will never forget about her and will take care of myself. And live on to do all the things we said we would do in the future, with those late night talks between us. Now on her birthday I always buy a cupcake. They have to be blue. Especially to remember the fun time we had together.