The Fighter of the Family

I was once with my dad and brothers at a restaurant, waiting for my mom to get off work to come. They wouldn’t seat us unless everyone was here. Yet, as we waited, minutes turned into an hour and we were all hungry and standing outside the restaurant, looking for the gray Toyota to show up. When my mom finally arrived, she learned what happened and stomped in, screaming and yelling at the waiters. 

“WHY COULDN’T YOU GUYS JUST SEAT THEM… THIS STUPID SYSTEM, MAKING THEM WAIT 

FOR A TABLE JUST BECAUSE ONE PERSON ISN’T HERE!” 

She didn’t actually say that word for word, but I could tell that’s how she was feeling when I look back. We ended up not eating at the restaurant and leaving. I looked over to my brothers’ faces and saw the embarrassment and shame that my mom had caused. I think I was a little embarrassed too, but I was so young back then that I didn’t know what my mom was doing. 

Procrastination Pt 1.

Waiting for the next day to follow and then the day after and then the next day. Waiting for you to do something but you don’t. Waiting for it to happen but it won’t. Waiting to get swallowed whole by a hungry dragon when it sees a human. Waiting for something that you know that if you don’t do it, it will mess with you so much that it would be like you breaking your favorite toy as a young child, but worse. Actions have consequences.

That’s what procrastination is, or at least how it feels. I’ve been a victim of procrastination for as long as I can remember. I’m sick of it, yet here I am, writing this at 12:33 am the night before it’s due. And this isn’t the only time it happened, procrastination has done more damage to me than anything else. I’ve told myself that I would change and that I would do better. 

I look to my parents, brothers, friends; and I see that they have their assignments and tasks all done, all asleep, their lives so much better and ready. I could be like that, but I chose not to. So, actions have consequences.

Procrastination Pt. 2: Change

“Nothing changes if nothing changes,” said Theo Von. He talks on a podcast, and he said this quote once that hit me very hard. It is time to change up now before it becomes too late. Procrastination has affected me in so many ways, hurting me. If you don’t change something in your life, nothing else will change and waiting for a miracle to happen is impossible. You have to take it into your own hands. Take control of your life and change. Be better. Because no one and nothing is going to change it for you. You can choose to work on your assignment. You can choose to sleep. You can choose to exercise. You can choose to eat healthier. You have the choice of change. Only you can decide your life.

The past test results in my classes have been a wake-up call to me. I’ve never been more afraid, and with mid-finals coming up as well, I have reached the peak of procrastination. Procrastination is like the parasite that just keeps on leeching on me whenever I try to shake it off. I’ve realized that I should stop asking questions, stop getting distracted, stop doing side-tasks that only get me further away from the main tasks, and pull off the parasite.

Talking to Just Talk

Talking to just talk is something I kind of like. Just the vibe of talking about random things, people, ideas, places, etc. It’s always calming with a friend or a stranger, online or in person. Not only that, the meaning that you get could be more than what you ask for. What I mean by that is that you could be talking to someone, asking questions and answering questions, learning from them, but also you could be enjoying that conversation and moment.

Talking to just talk is something that I like to do to pass time. It doesn’t really matter what you talk about. Sometimes it does. But really, conversations could be about anything. It could be interesting; I like interesting topics that make you think or debate about. It’s just how you feel at that moment. That moment of chill talking. 

And when you talk long enough, you might find it fun. Sitting in a car with a friend, just talking about the day, the week, the month. Or sitting on your chair and calling your friend from discord. Just those conversations to pass time. Talking to just talk.

Fun Times

Today was fun, Mom.

Was it now? What did you guys do at Bella Terra?

Well, we did an escape room. It was awesome and wild. Everyone was screaming and yelling; it was so loud and funny. Ethan said the most random, out of pocket things, and we all laughed. When we were actually trying to find clues, everyone was screaming and messing around that thirty minutes passed by without us making any progress. 

What kinda things did Ethan say? And did you guys beat it?

Oh, nothing much, really. Yeah we did, with like a couple minutes left.

Huh. That’s cool.

Then, we walked over to this Korean BBQ place and waited a bit and went in. The bulgogi was so good; probably my favorite food item there. We ordered like this steak, brisket, bulgogi, corn cheese, and more that I forgot. Chris was doing most of the cooking or grilling because his dad does that kind of cooking and he knows a lot. When we were all full and finished, Andy told the waiter to send ten more plates of meat. I thought it was a joke until we actually got them. We cooked them up and split the meat and made a competition of two groups to see who can finish their portion first. Trevor and I got the most meat in our group because we weren’t as full. We lost, with me being the last to finish. Fun times, Mom, fun times.

Woww. How much was it for the escape room and BBQ place?

I say about $700, but Ethan paid for half for the escape room.

Oh my god! What! 

It was for the experience, Mom.

How fun. Finish up your food now. It’s getting late.