Well from my personal experience, I thought it was manipulation completely that we ourselves got into due to our friendship/relationships with the people we know. It was a rough road because I felt like I just relied on that one person completely throughout some of my school years and until I found out that when you look at the overall picture, it just shows that it was a wrong decision to choose that. Because when they leave you, you have no one to rely on anymore because in your entire life so far, you just relied on one person and you didn’t trust yourself or anything. It got me thinking about what the hell was I thinking back then when I rewind to those times. The one person that I was friends with for so long during that time, playing video games together, hanging out with each other and now that I look back at that one moment, it just felt like they were only using for their own good. 

But also at the same time, it was myself who got me to that space and dug myself a hole. It wasn’t entirely them, some of it was me choosing to be their friend and which had me in a thinking state that wasn’t completely right. I’ve done some horrible things in the past that would cause me trauma for the rest of my life. As much as I’d want to forget it, yet I still remember it as if it were yesterday. I wish that I hadn’t done those things although the friendship was not a waste of time though, it got me to have some of the best times of my life in the past and that I don’t regret it at all. Because of what I believe in, all those things got me to who I am today. Even though it was just a time in the past, it’s not a bad life in the end. Yet, I wonder the possible “What ifs” questions that come to my mind when I think about that past again. All the possibilities that could’ve possibly encouraged my self-confidence, intelligence in life, studying habits, I can’t even list it all… I could’ve been such a better person but what if I hadn’t followed it, would I be here and become who I am today? The possibilities are endless but in the end, the past is the past and the present is called present, since it is a gift with a chance to make it a miracle.