“Waitin’ my turn like grains of sand inside a hourglass

Mainly concerned back in the day with how long I would last”

The workout had just started, and we were all in a line, going forward individually to the pain that was supposed to make us stronger. As every second past I became more and more nervous as my turn came. I was scared that as I was doing the exercise I would mess up and the coach would see.

Scared that I wasn’t good enough, that I would be cut from the team. Failure is a touchy thing, you anticipate your failure. In a way, you prepare for it.

Instead, I tried something different this time. I prepared for success. I prepared to try my best and not think about what failure would mean. I was the only one who could do what I had to do.

I am myself, and only I can do what I can do. I can’t follow an example to be myself, only see what others have done and see what can make me a better person.

“No role models and I’m here right now

No role models to speak of

Searchin’ through my memory, my memory

I couldn’t find one”