Happily Ever After

“There must be something in the water,” 

“’Cause everyday it’s getting colder.”

The more days that past, the more I lose you. Everyday is like a battle. You tell me to be strong, but how can I when you are dying?  I can see it in your eyes how much pain you’re in, but you still manage to smile. 

It has always been you and me since day one, you and me against the world, but in two days it will be just “me”. You tell me that it will be alright and to move on, but how can I move on after all that we’ve been through? 

We were supposed to get married, supposed to say our vows, and kiss when the priest said, “I now announce you husband and wife.”  We were supposed to get our happily ever after. How can I simply move one when you are gone?  How can I just forget about you, and meet someone new? You are the only one that I want, the only one that can make me happy.

“I’ve been told to get you off my mind,” “But I hope I never lose the bruises that you left behind,” “Oh my lord, oh my lord, I need you by my side”

It’s been 2 weeks since you have past, and I miss you everyday. I know that you’re happy up there, and I want to be happy for you, but I as the days pass all our memories start flooding back to me. I just want to see your face once more, hold you once more. I want to go back to when we first met and spend time with you once more. 

The day of your funeral, I couldn’t even bear to get out of bed. I knew I would have to stay strong for your family, but I couldn’t. I stayed in the car watching from a distance. I knew I could not keep myself together if I had seen the pain and sadness on your families faces. I am sorry, I should’ve been there, but I am not strong like you. 

“Somedays I’m treading the water and feel like it’s getting deep”

“Some nights I drown in the wade of the things that I think I need”

“Sometimes I feel incomplete.”

It’s been 5 years now. I still think of you everyday, but as the days go on it’s been getting better. I have 2 boys and a newborn girl. She has the biggest smile ever. And the two boys are a handful. They’re always running around breaking furniture, but are the sweetest brothers to their sister. 

I learned to accept that you’re happy up there and one day I will be up there with you too. We will get our happily ever after, But for now, I have my happily ever after with my family. You would love them. 

“someday when we’re older

We won’t worry ’bout the things that

We don’t need,

Yeah, one day down the line

Before we both run out of time

You’re gonna see”

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